Alexis

I seriously need to get to a gym! I might see if I can go to the gym this weekend. But my main goal this weekend is to finish unpacking and clean up this mess in my apartment. I'm tired of the boxes. And next week I'll go to the Gold's Gym here. I have my travel pass from the New Bern Gold's that I can use until March 10. That's when I'm charged for my next month's membership so I'll either join this Gold's or find another gym. There are 2 other gyms I want to check out. One is called Super Fitness and one is Bailey's. They both have "free membership" on their sites where you can go and try out the gym before actually joining. But with Bailey's in order to use that free membership I need a local ID so I need to get my FL license sometime next week. Or...hmmm I wonder if they would use my Jacksonville NADEP badge as ID. hmmm I didn't think of that before. Well it doesn't matter I need to get my FL license anyways. I just have to figure out what I need to do for it. Moving is a pain in the ass!!!! Especially moving to another state!

I just feel really crappy, not having exercised in over a week.

Wow...2 53's went down in Africa on Friday. 10 people died. They were out of New River, from HMH-464
That always scares me when I hear a 53 crashed because one of the first things I think is...is it something I did??

I wonder what happened. The weird thing is that 2 went down at one time. That's very suspicious.

As the time gets closer to move I'm really having lots of doubts about it. Like is this really what I should be doing. I said goodbye to someone at work on Friday because he will be on travel for the next 2 weeks and my last day is February 17 and I almost started crying. I really like the people I work with, for the most part. And for the most part I don't mind my job. The big thing is my social life. I don't really have one. I have Mark that I do stuff with on the weekends and the occasional get together planned by some coworkers. When I told Robert about looking at getting a job at the Jax NADEP he said he didn't want me to go but he understands that it's the best thing for me to do. And countless number of people have said that if they were single they wouldn't stay here. On Friday, John told me that he thinks this is a good thing I'm doing...but I wonder if it really is.

So going to Jacksonville gets me to a bigger place, more people, more things to do. But do I really want to go? I keep repeating to myself that if I don't go I would regret it. I'm young, and I've been here for a little over 3.5 years. There's no reason for me to stay here. I don't want to go because I feel "comfortable" here. I know it and it's rough changing, for anyone, especially me. But what if I don't like the job in Jacksonville or what if I still don't have a social life there? What if I'm just a loner and hibernate in my apartment just like I do here. I mean here I tried to meet people. I took tennis lessons to meet people. I didn't need lessons but I wanted to find someone to play tennis with. Well that never happened. So I plan on doing the same thing in Jacksonville and also there is a Greek church that gives greek lessons that I plan on doing. I'm not exactly a social butterfly so maybe this is how it's meant to be for me.

But now that it's less than 2 weeks until I move and I'm packing I'm getting more and more anxious about whether this is the right thing. What if I move there and absolutely hate my job? At least here when I wake up I don't dread going into work everyday. But I just think that's the risk I have to take. If I stayed here my whole life because I was scared then I wouldn't go anywhere my whole life. I would be stuck here and that's no way to live life. That's what I keep repeating to myself.

This is the first time I've really had the choice of going someplace else. I mean when I went off to college I knew I had to go somewhere. I was going someplace new so it didn't matter where really. Then when I got this job, well it was my only job offer so I knew I was taking it. Once again, no choice really. I had to go. Now I have the choice, I can stay here like it is, or go.

That's another thing. I'm not all that excited about going to Jacksonville. It's so close to where I went to high school and high school was literally hell for me. I hated it. I'm a completely different person now than I was when I graduated high school in 1998. But I know I will undoubtedly run into people from high school, even though Jacksonville is so big. I mean I've run into people I know from high school in Norfolk and a little bar in Athens, GA!! It just so happens that 1 of the 3 places that they overhaul Navy and Marine Corps aircraft happens to be in Jacksonville, FL
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But I'm going...I'm moving...I'm just wondering if it's the right thing to do...

Being sick really sucks. I feel like my head is going to explode...and it even sucks more being sick and needing to clean and pack up an apartment!! But I guess it's better to be sick this week than next week when I'm supposed to be skiing!

SEVENDUST AND NONPOINT TOMORROW!! I haven't seen them in about a year and a half!! :)

So yesterday I got a call from a recruiter who had gotten my resume from another recruiter. So this guy was calling from the Curtiss-Wright Corporation. Curtiss and Wright=2 big names in aviation in the beginning...think...Wright Bros.

So this place is in Gastonia, NC (right near Charlotte). They need a Reliability engineer...when I think reliability engineer I think BORING!

I had a phone interview tonight with a guy from the company. I guess I just did it for experience. Everyone I talked to suggested I do it.
But now I'm starting to doubt whether I really do want to move to Jacksonville.

I love the job I do now, the only problem is the location. I like dealing with the fleet, and helping the depot work out problems. I would basically be doing the same thing in Jax, just in a better location and a different aircraft. The only drawback to Jax is being so close again to where I lived for 7 years through middle school and high school.
So should I turn down that job in Jax to possibly have an ok job in Gastonia, in NC, where I don't really want to live? That seems kind of stupid to me.

I'm such an idiot! I was talking to Andy today about my move...and I was talking to him about tennis.
And how I'm not sure if there's many free tennis courts in Jacksonville like there is here. I had done a search before and I couldn't find anything. And I was all upset because most of the apartment complexes don't have tennis courts like mine has here in New Bern. Well I know why they probably don't...because there's parks with tennis courts ALL OVER! They aren't necessarily FREE but you pay a little to play for an hour or so.

Tennis is pretty popular in Jacksonville...one reason, probably...the freakin ATP International Headquarters are in Ponte Vedra. I can't believe I forgot about that. I used to live around the corner from it. I got Andre Agassi's autograph once there and watched him play with Malavai Washington, who actually lives (or lived?) in Ponte Vedra.

Now the key will be to find someone to find people to play with....I tried that here, I took lessons hoping to find someone to play tennis with but there weren't many people. Maybe this will be different in Jacksonville.

And not only is Jacksonville apparently the 14th largest city in the US (over 800,000 residents compared to probably no more than 30,000 in New Bern) but it also apparently has the largest urban park system in the US.

I just gave notice for vacating my apartment on February 18. Let's just hope now that they rent it out by then so I don't have to pay over $1000 in termination fees.....yikes!!

I don't think I have ever gotten as many comments about my weight as I have in the past week or so.

Last week Tmac told me that I was apparently getting ready for my move down to FL because I had obviously lost more weight. Then John Pollock came up and agreed with Tmac. Then I saw Sandi at the gym and she said how I looked so skinny and then I saw Alex the next day at lunch and he asked me if I had lost more weight. I said a little but I am trying to lose more. And he looked me up and down and said "from where?"
Then today I went to turn in my rent and Sonya said she hardly recognized me because she said I had lost more weight and how my face looks so thin. But a big reason for that was because I was on my way to the gym so my hair was pulled back, which I think tends to make peoples' faces look thinner.

So right now I weigh less than I have in years, probably since 10th grade, so about 10 or 11 years (I just shocked myself that it's been 10 (almost 11) years since 10th grade haha. But I want to lose 3 lbs before I move in February and I'm still about 8 lbs away from my ultimate weight goal that I set back when I started losing all my weight.

So since 2003, I have lost a total of about 31 lbs. 25 of it when I was on weight watchers and then in 2004 I gained about 10 back. Then this year I lost all of those 10 lbs plus about 5 or 6 lbs on my own, no Weight Watchers :)

This weekend I will finally get to open xmas gifts!! It's torture having to wait another week especially with everyone at work saying, so how was your christmas, what'd you get? And my answer is, nothing. haha

Also I'm excited because I'm guessing that this weekend I will get to talk to my sister and Maciek about our skiing trip. Maciek wanted to do it over the long weekend in February but that will probably be the weekend I am moving...so I guess we will do it one of the other weekends before I move. The funny thing is when I move to FL I won't be much farther away from skiing than I am now. Right now it's a 5 hour drive from New Bern to Charlotte and then to wherever we'd go skiing (this year it will probably be WV, last year it was the NC mountains). When I live in Jax it will be a 5.5-6 hour drive to Charlotte. That still amazes me. That's why eastern NC sucks...it's sooooo out of the way! Soon I will be able to stop complaining about it I guess.

I was watching the travel channel today, which I do when I long to be someplace else, and they were in Innsbruk, Austria. I was longing to be there skiing. This year we were supposed to go to Poland and possibly go skiing in the Alps. But we never made it to Poland. So in April we are supposed to go to Poland and we are pretty much definitely going since it's Maciek's sister's wedding we are going to but we aren't going skiing. But I am going to see if anyone wants to take a trip to another place. I'd love to go to Prague but I don't know. I don't know if anyone else would want to do it besides me. I seriously need to find some friends who want to travel. I'm getting so antsy not going anyplace. I need to travel and see different places. I hate the same old close minded Americans that I meet everyday. Wow that sounds really unpatriotic and rude of me...but seriously...I'm tired of people asking me if Greece is in the middle east. My goal in the future is to go on a trip every year to a different country. People tell me that that's what you do when you retire. I'm not waiting my whole life to go anyplace, I mean come on!!
In 2007, my dad is considering going to Greece after he retires and spend time there with my aunt. What I'm thinking of doing is spending a week in Greece when he's there and a week someplace else like say Italy, if I can find someone who wants to that is. yeah good luck to me. It's so hard to go to Europe and not go to Greece. I've been there 8 or 9 times, but I love that country. I love the history of it and I love the language and the people. But there's more to Europe than Greece.

Well it looks like it's pretty official. I believe my last day working at NADEP Cherry Point will be February 17 and I'll be moving back to FL on February 18. Then I'll start work at NADEP Jacksonville on February 21.

I'm excited...I think.

I'm just wondering if this is what I really want. I know if I don't do it I will regret it. I mean I can't take New Bern much longer. It's driving me crazy. But the thing I'm not really excited about is going back to Jacksonville. I've wanted to move back to FL but do I really want to go to the place that's soooo close to where I grew up for 8 years.

I'm just worried that I will move there, hate the job, hate the people I work with, and sit in my apartment and read just like I do here in New Bern.

Imagine if you will...getting into work at 7am, opening your drawer to deposit your purse and you look down and you see these (except obviously not pictures of them, the actual cookies)...




Oh how I will miss these people when/if I move to Jacksonville haha

create your own personalized map of the USA

This is just pathetic. I guess that's what happens when you live in FL most of your life, it's way out of the way haha...

Another Harrier crashed. I'm surprised it's front page on the cnn website. It's not huge news when a Harrier crashes, it happens so often!
I couldn't imagine working on Harriers. I'm glad I don't.
I guess our materials lab is going to have more work backlogged now. The H-53 stuff will be put on the backburner!

I have such a dilemma!

I have a wedding to go to on the 16th of December. It's for people who I don't really like all that much but I work with one of them, so I'm going to the wedding.
A few weeks ago the groom asked me if I would go to a wedding shower if they held it for the bride. I said sure. But then on Sunday I bought a present for them and had it shipped directly to them. I spent almost $30 on it after shipping.
So yesterday I got this invitation for this wedding shower to be held on Saturday sent by the bride's sister I think. It's going to be at a restaurant. So now I have to get a gift for that. So I went today and bought something. So now I've spent over $55 on gifts for people I don't really like.

Once I went to a different coworker's house and I said hi to these people and they said nothing back even though they stared right at me. The bride can be a real bitch too, personally I can't stand her...but I told the groom I would go to the wedding shower.

I haven't officially RSVPed to the shower though. That's a lot of money to spend on people I don't like and people I won't ever see again probably after January/February or whenever I move to Jacksonville. So I asked some opinions and my parents and my sister think I should just not go to the shower and say something came up. They were both shocked that the shower is being held at a restaurant and we all have to pay for our own meals.
My sister doesn't think I should go but if I did go she came up with a cute idea for a cheap gift of going to Blockbuster and getting one of those popcorn buckets and filling it with candy and a $5 gift card to blockbuster and write a note..apparently she saw that at another wedding shower.

But now I'm thinking I just won't go. I'll say something came up. I don't like these people. I hate lying but I don't want to spend my well earned money on people who are rude to me either. This girl is so rude. She used to be a secretary (for another team) and you'd walk by her and say hi or smile and she would look away and she never once said hi or smiled. So why should I spend over $50 so her fatass can have lots of presents!?!?!?!?!?!?! I've decided, I'm not going!!

With my luck, I'll see Kevin on Saturday around New Bern.

You'd think that a guy narrating a show on Greece would learn, or be taught, the correct way to say things. You'd think...but nope, not so...

Seeing all the yummy Greek food, I'm about to jump into my tv :)

How to make a Alexis

Ingredients: 3 parts competetiveness 5 parts humour 5 parts joy

Method: Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of curiosity

Mr. Miyagi died :(
Well Pat Morita, which was his real name.

ok that's just weird...Jeff from Weekend Excursion is playing guitar for Lindsay Lohan. That is just weird...I mean it's good for him. He moved to LA to play music...and he is...even if it's for *shudder* Lindsay Lohan.

Jeopardy is at NC State this week. haha coooooool I'm such a dork!

Well it's not really NC State, it's at the RBC Center which is just in Raleigh but it's down the street from NC State.